SKYLER DARKO; 28:06:42:12

3rd January 2012

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im really tired of being pushed around. u telling me what i can and cannot do. if you really did love me, u wouldnt ask me to change at all. there wouldnt be any pointless fights. we would actually be “happy”…instead of trying to.  it would work naturally..instead of trying to.. yes we can be ourselves around each other..but that doesnt mean we are “meant” for each other. i cant help the fact that i let my guard down and accepted u in to my heart. that i poured all my love out to you. or that i told u things i never told anybody else before, not even my own best friend. yes this hurts, yes its sad. but it needed to happen. we needed to break up. we’ve tried the “space” thing. didnt work. we tried plenty. the results came out the same…over and over again.  all we are doing is going around in circles. and im at that point where im soo dizzy im about to pass out.  im not gonna lie…in a day or two…hell, maybe even an hour or two…im gonna start regretting this. im going to start to miss you. just this time i cant cave in…..this time its real (ive heard this before) …but really. i cant take it anymore. yes i fucken love you with all my heart. but now..my heart is aching…its being flooded by all those words youve said…i HATE you..bitch..ungrateful….ect. nobody deserves that. not just me…   if you hate me so much then why even bother with me? seriously.. just dont play like that. i never expected that id be in a relationship for this long with someone i met in school….. not even that, just i never thought i would let anyone get as close to me as you did. i surprised myself.  if you were any other guy….u would have been gone a lonnnngg time ago. but i held onto u so long because i thought ..”i cant let a guy this special get away” i really thought u were differernt..and i mean…to some extent you are……but ur also not far off from being just like the rest of them. 

thats all for now. 

til’ next time.

-Sky